It's hard only being able to walk up and barely touch him, sometimes, but trying not to overstimulate him means you can't touch and stroke and pat very much, he needs the energy it takes to interpret that input to put towards growing and getting better. So we can be with him and talk quietly, but need to let him rest as much as possible.
When I walk up to see him instead of just standing and admiring him I look at the head gear that is covering his cute little face, glance at his CO2 levels, to make sure he's been exhaling, check his oxygen levels to see if he's been inhaling, look at his oxygenation levels and about four numbers to make sure the breathing machines are at good pressures, and that the percent of oxygen is still getting closer to normal room percentages... Heart rate is right over his head and blood pressure is off to the right, temperatures are constantly being taken by the bed and the nurses...
So it's been difficult to just concentrate on, "hey that's my boy" I just wish I could see his face more, now that the billy lights are on him they have put extra protection over his eyes, blocking even more...
So, besides complaining, my point is that holding him yesterday, was just indescribable. I started crying the second he touched my chest. He was happy and content, moving around a little as he slept in my arms for almost 40 minutes. It was a little scary watching him getting transfered to Kristen and again to me... The lines going into his belly are the most delicate. It takes a nurse or two and a respitory therapist to get him situated, and then back again. They try to combine this with other stuff they need to do, so as to not tire him out too much... I'll post a couple of pics.
Right now we're trying to fast forward through the most ridiculous and stupid video the Nazi nurses have been shoving down our throat for the last two days.
It is the most insensitive piece of garbage, no we didn't just enjoy nine months of pregnancy, no we can't take our baby home, and thanks I'll try not to smoke or do street drugs while the baby is in the room.... great. I'm so annoyed.
But these pictures are cute!
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How precious are those pics. I'm so glad you finally got to hold him. These pics make me want to go wake my baby up and cuddle her! Hope everything continues to go well. Thanks for sharing with us!
no words to describe, hang in there, tons o prayers pullin for you all. P.S. if u see newsie bout some shakin in L.A. no worries, was just a shake everyone here is fine. TTYS
Oh my gosh, i'm bawling just hearing about my big ol'son bawling; although it's no surprise, our family is known for tears about everything, as my sister-in-law says, "You'd cry if Lassie got caught in the rain!"
Those pics are undescribable, again it amazes me how little he is. As Calvin said it's really hard to keep a balance between, yea, he's doing great and being cautious too.
We're praying with all of you, thanks from gramma & grampa Barnum in Mi.! Love you Greydon!!
Thanks for letting me see the little guy. He is a miracle and our prayers are with him and his Daddy and Mommy.
Hopefully soon there will come a day when it doesn't take extra support people just to hold your son. I hope it is just as magical as it was the first time. I know what it's like not to see his beautiful face under all the cords and tubes. Be patient, you have a long road ahead of you and we are praying for you. Modern medicine is wonderful and some day God willing he will be as big as his daddy. Until then enjoy ever minute of the tiny, little paper-thin diapers, funny little NICU crocheted hats, and super cute premie clothes (when he needs them).
My best advice right now is take advantage of the NICU nurses and sleep as much as you can between visits. Soon he will be all yours to care for and you will crave sleep!
I am so glad things are going as well as they are for someone so tiny. He is precious! Thanks for sharing this experience.
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