Keeping it random

I've been appeasing my need to expell thoughts out into the universe lately on facebook. FB is all about little one-liners, which are much easier than coming up with a reasonably intelligent paragraph or two for my blog.

But I feel the need to blog... I have a few thoughts, and they aren't even all negative... crazy as that may be.

1.) The other day I was walking around in the yard with Greydon. I wish I made the time to do it more often, it was wonderful. As I walked into the side yard I was quickly transported back one year ago. Last fall I pulled an antique piece of farm machinery that was being neglected and ignored into that side yard for a little fall decoration. Then I disconnected Greydon's heart monitors and breathing tubes, bundled him up in a sweater and blanket while Kristen's cousin Jen took some cute fall pictures of our newly home little baby. The air that day seemed exactly the same as it did during our stroll next to that same rusty plow. I was carrying my boy who seems so different and the same all at once. It was subtle and tender.

We walked over to an apple tree and I picked him an apple. He was fascinated by the apple and hung onto it for about an hour... it was cute.

2.) The guy sitting in front of me in the computer lab must think that the back of his chair is magically going to completely block him from anyone's view, or he just has no idea that his t-shirt is riding half way up his back and his belt isn't doing a very good job.... oh great now he has shifted so I am getting the entire overweight top half of the butt crack shot... really? Can you not feel that?

3.) I have had some of the worse classes ever in college, ironically I am here to learn how to be a teacher... supposedly... This makes it that much more frustrating to not be done already. However, next semester is my last semester of traditional classes, than a year of an internship... which will feel like being done... erggh, I want to be done now. The class I have to go to next is taught by the worse teacher. I am used to getting pretty high scores, so I notice when points are taken off. Especialy for things that were never listed in the instructions in the first place. That's a huge no-no in education, and she's an education teacher... what the crap... I don't "shut up and play nice" very well; she didn't appreciate my telling her that I didn't agree with her grading procedures and that I was frusterated and unmotivated... oops....

4.) Big big butt shot... is he trying to do this... AHHHH he sat up and fixed his shirt...WOOHOO

5.) Anyone else feeling invisible? I'm not exactly tiny... if you see me walking towards you on a pathway, trying to hug my side of the edge, do you think you could maybe slide in behind your girlfriend while we try to pass you? Oh, never mind, I will get out of YOUR way.... Then I was standing waiting to fill my cup with carbonated evil at lunch, waiting for the girl in front of me to fill up her drink. THis short little girl, who apparently also couldn't see me, literally walks around me and fills up her water cup next... like she had to manuever around me... really? I made sure to take a step closer to the machine... so when the little cutter turned around to leave she pretty much face planted right into my chest, it was great. She saw me that time...

6.) FINE, I'm off to the most useless class ever... It is just frusterating to know that I could be actually making a difference, impacting, teaching, assisting discovery, but no, I'm off to listen to the epitomy of the teacher I never want to be lecture for two hours... I might need more carbonated evil...